From the bottom of the heart...

Just a note of gratitude:

To my friends(especially my 'brother') :
I know i have been down these few days,
I know i have not been myself
I know i have been feeling down
I know i have been feeling very depressed nowadays
I know i have been acting like a zombie nowadays
I know i have been acting strange due to some problems i am facing
I know i have not been really approachable these few days
I know i have been using u guys to release my stress
I know i have been wasting ur time to listen to me
I know i have been making you all to comfort me unintentionally
I know i have been making you all worry bout me
I know i have been desperately searching for someone to talk
I know i have been really pessimistic bout life nowadays
I know i have been deserting you guys
I know i have been avoiding u guys everytime
I know i have been trying to be alone by not joining you guys
I know i have been making you all worry where i have been
I know i have been making u guys suffer because of my own problems

But i am grateful to have u guys as my friend,

You all have been:

• Helping me to get over my problems
• Helping me to boost my confidence
• Lending me ur shoulder to let me cry on
• Lending me ur ears so that u can listen to my problems
• Giving me strenght to succeed
• Giving me courage to face my problems
• Giving me a rel big smile to make me more optimistic bout life
• Giving me a real big hug when i feel like crying
• Spending ur precious time on helping me
• Spending ur time on listening to my problems
• Making me feel so much better for giving me strength
• Making me more prepared to face all da challenge i am gonna face
• Understanding me thought i have been acting strange
• Understanding my problems and try to help
• Standing by me when i have been weak
• Standing by me when i have not been me
• Keeping up with my very bad mood
• Keeping up with my weird behaviour
• Believing in me when i lose my faith
• Believing in me when i have been down

And for my 'brother':

Just a simple thank you cannot express how much u have done to me. I am forever thankful:

• For all those times you stood by me when i was down
• For being the one who held me up when I fall
• For being the one who saw me through it all
• For being my strength when I was weak
• For giving me faith and believe in me
• For giving my faith back to me when I lost it
• For trusting me when I feel so down
• For trusting me and giving me the confidence

Words cannot describe how much I owe you guys, just a simple words of encouragement lightens my heart, and now i know where true friends lie, they are the ones who will always walk beside you when u need them, the ones who walk behind you when u have succeed in life, the ones who will help you with your problems, the ones who always expect always to be there for you, the ones who have their shoulder soggy with your tears...


To all my frens who have been putting up with me when i was down, just a simple thank you won't be enough...i owe you guys a lot... I am okay now, thanks for caring bout me, thanks for being a true friend, thanks for listening to my problems....

Words fail to describe how grateful i was for all of your help....Arigatou...

Thank you...


A friend in need is a friend indeed


and the song of gratitude specially for those who have helped me through my 19 years of rough times and those who make me a better person:


~Becaused You Loved Me~

Thanks!!!!!

Life is....

I have been hearing from lots of friends...complaining bout life. How life sucks, how things are unfair, and how they desperately need someone to fill their empty heart, how luck is never on their side, ow stress they are, how uselss they are, how hopeless they are, how things never happen what they want to be.....

And now i think this is true...

Life is damn PROBLEMATIC!!!!

Aarrgghh...stress 'til the end....haiyo got so many things to do and so little time, so many things to study but dun have time, so many things to worry but cannot solve all the problems...feel like life is so damn shitty.... feel damn useless now....

and i realise how all those people who have been complaining to me feel now....

and i found this really interesting article on Jiah Ling's blog...sorry ya i have been stealing...

Truth about girls:
1. Gossip isnt a sin. Its an art.
2. We arent ashamed to cry.
3. We must go to the bathroom in groups.
4. We have this thing called feelings. Dont hurt them.
5. We dont wake up looking pretty. It takes time and effort.
6. Sometimes is just never quite enough.
7. We need girls' nights often.
8. We hold grudges and we never forget the things you say to us that hurt.
9. It doesnt matter who dumped who or why. Whenever we see an ex with another girl, it always bothers us. Not because we're not over you, but because we know we used to be that girl.
10. Makeup can hide so many things, like puffy eyes from crying to huge scars from a broken heart.
11. Never ever ask a girl what she weighs; or imply anything about her weight being too much or too little. Just dont do it.
12. Never ask a girl if shes being so bitchy because of PMS..because other things annoy us..duh.
13. As much as we say we didnt like you that much..we did.
14. Girls notice every little thing so be careful what you say and do.
15. Our eyes are located in our heads. Not our chest or butt. When you're not looking in our eyes, we know.
16. We get a feeling in our gut when things are wrong.
17. Sometimes we trust you because we want to even when we know you are lying, and it hurts.

that's about it i guess.... I just need a place to complain ...anyone..sorry ya..this post might be boring...

Fireworks....

Fireworks are the best in UK during Guy Fawkes day....but who the hell is he ?? Well. i will put some information bout this Guy call Guy Fawkes...so at least ppl like me who know nothing bout UK will know some day...

Guy Fawkes

Guy Fawkes (April 13, 1570–January 31, 1606), was a member of the group of Roman Catholic conspirators who attempted to carry out the Gunpowder Plot. The conspirators had planned to assassinate King James I (James VI of Scotland) and all the members of both branches of the Parliament of England. To do this, the House of Lords was to be blown up during the formal opening of the 1605 session of Parliament. Guy Fawkes was primarily responsible for the latter stages of the plan's execution. He was discovered before its completion, however. Following an interrogation, Fawkes and his co-conspirators were executed for treason. His capture is commemorated in Britain with Guy Fawkes Night.

Gunpowder Plot

Effigy of Guy Fawkes, being paraded by the Cliffe Bonfire Society as part of the Bonfire Night celebrations in Lewes, Sussex.Main article: Gunpowder Plot
Guy Fawkes is most famous for his involvement in the Gunpowder Plot of 1605, which he was placed in charge with executing due to his military and explosives experience. The plot, masterminded by Robert Catesby, was a failed attempt by a group of provincial English Roman Catholic conspirators to kill King James I of England and VI of Scotland, his family, and most of the Protestant aristocracy in one swoop by blowing up the Houses of Parliament during its State Opening. Guy Fawkes was first introduced to Robert Catesby by a man named Hugh Owen.

Fawkes and the other conspirators were able to rent a cellar beneath the House of Lords. By March 1605, they had hidden approximately 2.5 tonnes of gunpowder in the cellar, with the intent of detonating it during the State Opening of Parliament. Several of the conspirators were concerned, however, about fellow Catholics who would have been present at parliament during the opening. One of the conspirators had written a letter of warning to Lord Monteagle, who received it on October 26. The conspirators became aware of the letter the following day, but they resolved to continue the plot after Fawkes had confirmed that nothing had been touched in the cellar.

Lord Monteagle had been suspicious, however, and the letter was sent to the secretary of state who initiated a search of the vaults beneath the House of Lords. Fawkes was discovered and arrested during a raid on the cellar in the early morning of November 5. He was tortured over the next few days, after special permission to do so had been granted by the King. Eventually, he revealed the names of his co-conspirators (who were either already dead or whose names were known to the authorities). On January 31, Fawkes, Wintour, and a number of others implicated in the conspiracy were taken to Old Palace Yard in Westminster, where they were hanged, drawn, and quartered.


therefore on this day (5/11/2005) they will set up a lot of fireworks just to remember a guy who try to blow up the house of parliment...mad huh??

anyway, those are the pics i took from my friend(haha sounds like kind of stealing from other's blog, but ...eh people send it to me to let me see 1 lerr...) and i have like so many pics and i seriosly cannot post it all up so...

all of them are damn nice fireworks.....=)